Day 14 – 5/12/24
Mother’s Day Part 2
Today Emma and were on our own in the morning, since Mike had to work at the firehouse.
She immediately wanted to run out and do gymnastics in the yard. I went out there with her, grounded myself with Mother Gaia bare feet in the grass while she started pulling all her gymnastics equipment out. I had my coffee out there with me and it was just a beautiful, beautiful reminder that sometimes your days can look different and that is okay.
The day before, I had done a lot of solo time, pulling tarot and oracle cards, working on things by myself. And I got a nice little reconnection to some of my projects that I was doing. But it’s all good, because the next day, Emma wanted my attention more and it flowed more towards that, and that is perfect.
I did not feel stressed or rushed in any way or feel like I was missing out on time that I could be spending on my business. Sometimes I had in the past felt that little bit of a rush or a little bit of a pressure that if I didn’t do or didn’t do certain things in my business at certain times that I’d be missing out on that time and almost felt that I wouldn’t get that time back or whatnot.
But I didn’t feel any of that pressure at all on Sunday. I was just simply enjoying watching her do gymnastics, simply enjoying my coffee, simply enjoying each present moment and getting to be outside on such a beautiful day all day long.
A few hours later my parents were headed over so we could take a family bike ride and have a meal together for Mother’s Day. They brought with them Dunkin Donuts iced lattes. And despite the fact that the latte was almost completely all milk and no coffee and I was kind of at first annoyed, I just let it go. (cue, “Let it Go,” Frozen.)
I told myself that I was not going to let this small blip derail my entire day. I just blessed and released.
Yes, they made the latte incorrectly. I will probably not be going back there because I am a “good quality” snob haha. I’ll probably only be going to Starbucks and the other local coffee shop, which is fine.
My mom had brought a few gifts that she picked up in on their recent trip to Sedona. So I was super excited because she brought me a green calcite crystal and an amethyst crystal necklace.
That was so amazing and I was so grateful that she gave me those beautiful gifts.
After that we decided to go for a bike ride.
We pulled out the bikes, we started going down the trail in town and we got past the point where Emma and I usually stop at a local park. And I told Emma, “we’ll stop at the park on the way back after we ride a little bit.” But she just was not having that. She really wanted to stop at the park, like, now.
So I said, “OK, why don’t you stop with Grandpa? And Grandma and I will continue on and then circle back around to meet up with you.”
So she agreed to that. But then after a little while, we heard her come back up behind us on the path and was crying on her bike calling for me, “mama mama mama, I want you, I want you,” She just really really wanted me and wanted to be in my energy so I told my parents to go ahead. I was able to get her calmed with her special breathing technique and talked to her a little bit and she decided to ride just a little further with me.
We got maybe half a mile further and then she decided she wanted to turn back around and go to the park.
And it turned out to be the perfect decision for that time. Because she really needed me at that moment and I wasn’t going to force her to go with my dad even though I knew she would be fine with him.
He is the most caring, gentle guy you can ever meet. She’d be totally fine. But I didn’t want to force that on her if she wanted to be with me so we went back to the park together.
And it was really beautiful. We just spent entirely present moment time together. We played, we ran through the park. We played this game where I had to run with my eyes closed and find her through the equipment, which was interesting.
Again, she’s always wanting me to close my eyes and play games with my eyes closed (haha). And it just points to that innocence of let’s just enjoy life. Let’s not look ahead too far. Let’s enjoy what we have right here, right now, right in this moment.
Let’s not get stuck in the anxiety of it all. Let’s not get stuck in the panic and the forward thinking that everybody does. And let’s just truly live in this moment. And she teaches me that again and again. She teaches me that lesson every single day of my life. It’s why I often say that when she was born, it shifted everything for me. It woke me back up to the beauty and possibilities of life here on Earth.
So we did that for a while, waiting for my parents to get back to the park.
After that we ordered some tacos for lunch and my dad went to pick up the tacos.
We got back to the house and Emma wanted to do more gymnastics so she was showing her moves to everybody and practicing, really getting into her practicing again. She’s really, really intense on getting these gymnastics moves and I think it’s so great that she has the drive and dedication for something she truly loves.
I will forever keep encouraging her to pursue her dreams, as long as she in it’s for the love of the dream and not because she feels pressured. So the rest of the day was really nice. I got nice and burnt from the bike ride. None of us wore sunscreen (do not recommend haha) and the sun just felt really intense for some reason. Maybe it was the solar flares, maybe not, I don’t know.
It was such a beautiful day, culminating in a beautiful night.
After my parents left, Emma played gymnastics for a while longer. I cleaned up some things. Then we took off to go to get fro-yo.
The fro-yo shop was super busy because it was Mother’s Day and everyone had the same idea. But then I had totally forgotten that on Mother’s Day, they give all moms a 50% off discount. What a nice surprise! The universe is always giving me nice little surprises.
They had this most delicious oat milk Italian ice cream and oat milk chocolate. I was so happy because I do not eat dairy anymore. I created this vanilla chocolate swirl with brownie pieces, dark chocolate, and graham crackers.
It was incredible. Emma piled on all the toppings of hers with her gummy worm bears and gummies and sprinkles and she was so, so happy.
We had eaten a late lunch earlier in the day but she really want some cheese fries and Portillo’s is right next door.
So we got in the drive-through lane to go get cheese fries and a veggie dog at Portillo’s and the employee told me to go in the second lane. And I just had a thought, “that’s weird. They’ve never told me to go in the second lane before.” So I just went in the second lane, drove all the way up and then people were beeping behind me because apparently I was blocking them from exiting the lane. If you live in the Midwest you’ll now what I’m talking about when I say the line at Portillo’s can get intense, and people can get really hasty and mean.
I just stayed because I really didn’t know where to go. People were getting really mad behind me.
I was just like, “I don’t care like you’re getting mad at me. They told me to sit here.” So finally I asked like the one employee by the window. I told her, “Your co-worker back there told me to go in the second lane. but now I’m blocking everybody. Should I move forward or something? I don’t really know why he told me to go in the second lane.”
She just gave me an odd look and said, “that’s really weird. Yeah, why don’t you just move forward here?”
After that bizarre moment it took another 20 minutes to get cheese fries and a veggie dog.
I had a thought, “my god. In the past, I would have been so mad about this. I would’ve went straight to ‘everything’s going wrong. I can’t believe this is happening.”
This time instead I maintained this calm, cool, confidence and just kept saying, “It is what it is. I cannot change this. I can’t do anything about this. It’s out of my hands. I am just gonna wait for the cheese fries and veggie dog. I’m gonna sit here, talk to Emma, and enjoy the rest of our time on Mother’s Day. And it is what it is at this point.”
This suspending disbelief lifestyle as I now call it, has really made me notice what my past responses to situations were, and compare them to my present responses. That really makes me see how much you can really change how you respond over time, and how that in turn makes the next moment flow easier.
Responding with anger to a situation that is essentially entirely out of my control, only makes me feel worse in the end, not better.
We finally get the food and she said, “I’m so sorry for the wait.”
I just said thank you politely and drove away.
How many times have you seen someone exploding in a drive-through line or restaurant? Kind of like the man who was so angry behind me that he was beeping and waving his arms? He must really have had to get to some kind of emergency appointment after picking up his beef sandwich, I don’t know.
How often do we respond to stressful situations with anger? But really, what is the point of exploding?
What is the point of getting upset about something that we essentially have really no control over? What is the point of getting mad when we can just maintain our state of calm and move onto the next thing?
This is what the result is when you work on nervous system regulation. The small annoyances are just that; small annoyances. They are nothing more, nothing less. They are blips on the radar of an entire lifetime of positive moments.
Everything’s always happening for a reason. There must be a reason this is happening. I just can’t see it yet.
I looked down at the ticket number that was on my takeout food bag later. And lo and behold, it was ticket number 33. 33 is really significant lately because I’ve been seeing 33 everywhere. I’ve been seeing 33 on all the Oracle cards I’ve been pulling, I’ve been seeing 33 in messages, I’ve been seeing 33 pretty much everywhere. So of course, I looked it up in the Angel Numbers app.
Angel Number 33 is a message from your angels that any positive changes or projects you are considering right now will be well worth your while, and you will be assisted in the undertaking.
How perfect.
So, seeing that number 33 repeated over and over and over and while am continuing to work on all these creative projects and getting all these ideas and intuitive inspirations and all of the things and then 33 keeps popping up again and again and again.
As I was recording voice notes for this blog post, I pulled up a picture of being 33 weeks pregnant with Emma. That’s really funny too. The universe is always speaking to us in signs and symbols. It’s up to us to interpret and take those messages on as confirmation.
Even so much so that it comes up on a food ticket in the drive-through line.
Thank you universe.
Later we got back home and Emma wanted to practice gymnastics some more so she was doing that. I was cleaning up and then decided, to take a shower while she’s practicing gymnastics and give myself a slowed down shower, so I’m not rushing through it.
And in the shower I started channeling some interesting ascension-type messages and talking about ascending energies and what’s happening right now and how people who haven’t done the spiritual work are going to feel the effects of this heightening of energies much more than those of us that have been doing the spiritual work and all this interesting channeling came through.
I took note of that, made some recordings and feel like a lot more is opening up in that way. I’m being able to tune in more to my third eye and to my intuition in a deeper way and being able to channel these messages and I’m TRUSTING what’s coming through. And I credit a huge part of that to suspending disbelief that what I’m receiving in the form of messages and divine synchronicities is actually quite real.
That is a wrap on May 12, 2024.
I have to keep all these dates straight in my head. I’m losing track because we are moving along quickly in this journey. This is going to be such an amazing 365 days.
It’s been not even one month and I’m already feeling such a difference in my mindset, in my thoughts, in my actions, in my connection to my higher self and spirit team. I’m feeling everything so deeply. I am actually on a walk right now in the rain and I would normally never do that, but I will write about that more on Day 15.
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