Have you ever been afraid to speak up, to speak out, or to tell your truth?
Have you wondered where that fear manifested from?
I found myself afraid to fully speak my truth, because I was afraid that people would judge me, mock me, persecute me or worse, call me a fraud!
I noticed this fear manifested in various areas of my life – even before they shifted into me embodying and accepting my current path as witch, akashic energy healer, and intuitive mentor.
It was when I was afraid to speak up for the kids getting bullied in grade school, for fear that I would then be bullied (fear of persecution).
It was when I held myself back from telling someone with loud, opinionated beliefs that I disagreed with them because their beliefs were hateful, racist, or derogatory (fear of retaliation).
It was when I went along with the crowd in my early 20s and did what everyone else was doing, instead of leaning into my own intuition to guide my life (fear of being looked at as “other,” “different.”)
It was feeling a need to be accepted more than a need to honor my own soul calling.
It was when I stayed in jobs too long that didn’t fulfill me, because of a reliance on a system that wasn’t built for me – a system that keeps people chained up feeling like they owe their time and energy to causes that aren’t even promoting what their true ideals and values are.
It was when I did finally break free from that traditional path, but then found myself again afraid to speak out loud what I TRULY wanted to be doing in my life and business.
It was when I was afraid to share the messages I was hearing coming through in intuitive client sessions, because I didn’t want clients to be angry or frustrated, or to judge me and call me a fraud!
Without realizing it, I was holding back a big part of my spiritual gifts and abilities out of a deep fear of judgment and persecution.
But more than anything I was not honoring who I was at a deep level, because I was AFRAID of how others would respond to me.
I was afraid of what they would think of me; what they would judge my life to be.
It wasn’t until I unpeeled the layers to reveal what was underneath my outward facing fear and uncertainty, that I came to understand that years of hiding in the shadows was a result of lifetimes of hiding in the shadows. It was a result of generations of hiding; of being afraid; of the embodied fear of persecution and alienation.
When I began to slow down and get curious about what lies beneath the surface, what I uncovered was pure magic hidden in the darkness.
You might be feeling called to a path that scares you…You’ve felt the nudges, you’ve seen the signs, but you’re hesitant because of how it will look to others, how your family will perceive you, how your friends will react, how your community will respond.
Becoming aligned with your higher self and inner witch is going to piss a lot of people off, it’s going to trigger the F out of them, it’s going to bring their insecurities to the surface, it’s going to make them say mean things; take cheap shots at you.
When that happens, it will inevitably trigger underlying wounds in you – the Witch Wound, the Healer’s Wound.
When you speak your truths and then others respond in judgmental or off-putting ways, it triggers that deep seated fear of persecution and serves as a reminder of why you were hiding in the shadows in the first place.
Part of this process is embracing your path regardless of how it makes others feel.
Because you weren’t put on this planet to please others. You were put here for a purpose, one that you’re uncovering each day.
This is your call to follow that path that logically makes little sense to a 3D world and trust that it’s leading you to something incredible.
This is your call to trust that you’re ascending beyond the ordinary.
That those who give you unconditional love and support will be there even if they don’t understand fully; and the others who don’t embody that love and support will naturally fall away.
And it’s no fault of yours. It’s just that they aren’t ready to step into unconditional love and acceptance of your soulful path.
They may be ready one day; but for now this is your life.
This is your path.
