May 28 – June 2, 2024
Days 30-35
“A return to everyday life”
Lesson Learned: Suspending Disbelief that all that was being thrown at me this week was all stuff I could handle.
After returning from the UK, the last week of May was filled with lots of end-of-school activities and busyness.
The week was a whirlwind, and if I could share one takeaway it was that coming back from a dream trip stirs up some feelings, and spiritual upleveling tends to make others around you a bit uneasy sometimes.
I had just spent 5 days exploring my inner world, exploring English sea cliffs, castles, and Stonehenge.
When you come back to your “everyday life” after something like that, it can be a bit startling.
But it took almost a whole month later as I was speaking to Bri about finding my “pinch me” moments back in the here and now…. and I’ve been slowly working on doing that ever since returning from my trip.
June 3 – June 9
Days 36-42
Lesson Learned: Suspending Disbelief that I get to “have it all”
The first week of June was filled with abundance, joy and a deep feeling of I’m really doing this; I’m really living my dream; it’s here. I get to wake up each and every single day and live the life I dreamed of years ago. I get to run my own business, the way I see fit.
I am suspending disbelief that I can still run my business and be immersed in the joy of helping my clients AND be off with my daughter at home, engaging with her and being present.
The first week of June also was monetarily VERY abundant. I am so, so grateful that I made nearly as much money in my business in the first week of June, as I had made in the previous 5 months of the year in total. (Yes, you read that correctly!)
I am continuing to suspend disbelief that my success is inevitable and I’m ALWAYS on the right path, no matter what. And that I will double that income with ease, again and again, because my energy is aligning with my desires.
The first week of June I also had an in-person Akashic session that blew me away – We were such kindred souls and I realized in suspending disbelief that the universe is bringing me absolutely soul-aligned clients. This is working; it’s all working out in such a beautiful, wonderful way.
June 10-16
Days 43-49
Lesson Learned: Suspending Disbelief that I get to step into a new way of working and existing in the world, and it’s MAGICAL.
This week I suspended all disbelief that nurturing my audience and my clients doesn’t have to take up ALL my time. I can still do my morning practices, have freedom to bike and do yoga, and then step into my role of serving clients.
This is a new way of working, of being, of existing in the world.
This is the MAGIC of working within your zone of energetic alignment, and it’s so BEAUTIFUL.
I ran my telegram event AWAKENING YOUR INNER SELF-EXPRESSION.
My group of women got so many aha moments and realizations, and I absolutely loved running a semi-live event in this format. It’s such a freaking perfect match for my personal energy and my way of working that lights me up.
I love it, I love it, I love it!
And the fact that I get to choose which way to run my events; I am the decision-maker in my business. If something doesn’t feel good, I don’t have to do it.
That is so empowering and I’m so grateful that this gets to be my reality.
On Friday I started feeling tired and had a migraine from my period, so I communicated to my group of women and extended the group coaching chat portion of the event one more day, to Monday. They had no problem with that.
This is what happens when you design your business around your life. Your clients understand and simply “get it” and they don’t give you slack for postponing an event.
Another real-life “pinch me” moment happened here – because 4 years ago at this time I was still working the corporate grind, answering to higher-ups, and if I had to miss a meeting or deadline because I had a migraine, that would surely be frowned upon.
So I’m recognizing that here and now, I’m so, so grateful this gets to be my reality now.
June 17-23
Days 50-56
Lesson Learned: It’s OK to feel “out of sorts” and rest is important
This week I suspended disbelief that feeling “out of sorts” doesn’t completely derail my goals.
In the past I’d let a down mood or more negative energy throw me off track from what I was working on; my major goals.
But this week, I acknowledged that icky energy, I stuck to my daily self care routines and I allowed myself simple time for rest and recharging without putting pressure on to “fix” anything.
The program I am currently completing, Positive Intelligence, with Jess, has been super helpful in making me realize what some of my saboteurs have been, and shifting my responses to challenging and triggering events.
In this week we dived into the “Judge” which lives inside all of us. The Judge shows up differently for everyone, but every single one of us has an inner judge. (If you think you don’t, truly everyone has a judge; some are louder than others.)
That was eye opening to see just how much I was judging myself and others throughout the week. As I would catch myself judging, I would tell myself “there goes the judge again,” and do some PQ REPS to quiet the judge in my mind.
By the end of the week I was able to evaluate how much happier and more peaceful I was when I didn’t judge so much.
I’ve had to suspend disbelief in this program a ton, because I would find myself avoiding doing the exercises, but then once I did them, I’d feel worlds better.
June 24-30
Days 57-64
Lesson Learned: Big Realizations on What I’m Avoiding
This week in the Positive Intelligence program, I came face to face with the Avoider Saboteur. And let me tell you, it was not pleasant in the least bit.
I won’t sugarcoat this.
Having to face my Avoider every single day was triggering AF. It unearthed things within me I didn’t want to examine.
It made me see how much I was truly avoiding in my life.
But it also shed light on the simple, small tasks I could easily complete and check off my list, in order to quiet that Avoider.
I realized that I avoid to the point of then things becoming overwhelming, when I could have simply taken care of the task up front and it would’ve been easier from the start.
I am grateful though, that I got to see how bad my avoider could be at times. Because now I’m armed with the knowledge to support me in tackling that Avoider Saboteur in the future.
Manifesting Kittens
This week also brought in a kitten, literally, straight to our front door.
A kitten showed up one day as I was leaving on a walk, and so I put out a bowl of food and water for it.
You see, Emma had been actively manifesting a kitten for a while – and she totally called this kitten in.
It is most likely a stray, and is very skittish around people, so we haven’t gotten too close but it sure is enjoying the treats we’ve been leaving out.
Client Healings and Wins
On Wednesday I had an incredible client session with my first-ever client (she first signed up in 2021!)
We did a hypno-reiki session, and she told me that at the end of the session it felt as if a big part of her nervous system was healed.
Every time I have a session like that, I am reminded how much I LOVE the work I do, and wouldn’t change it for the world.
Navigating Emotions
This week Emma was struggling in summer camp; she wasn’t wanting to stay at camp most mornings.
Both Mike and I navigated helping her get through the emotions without labeling them as wrong. Her therapy appointment had been cancelled this week, so it was good for us to put into practice her different techniques she’s been learning.
But also, it’s okay to change your mind, was the main message.
She had thought she wanted 5-day camp, but it turns out she’s not exactly liking that, so we talked about how it’s okay to change your mind, and your emotions are never wrong.
I had to really suspend disbelief this week around being able to still run my business and have a kid at home with me.
In the early days of my business I’d usually say “If I don’t have childcare how will I move any of my goals forward?”
But in suspending disbelief I have a totally different mindset.
I’m building a business around my family. I’m building my business around my desired lifestyle.
I get to choose. I can have BOTH and so much more.
Finding the “Pinch Me” Moments in the Everyday
I really thought a lot this week about how I could find my surreal “pinch me” moments in the everyday life?
My examples so far: When I see my rate for 1 hour of an in person session is triple my old job wage.
That’s surreal “Pinch me, is this really my life?”
Or when I’m in my zone doing my thing in my business group events – card readings, akashic visualizations, leading group telegram chats – I ask “Is this really my job? Is this really what I do for a living now?” Pinch me – this is so amazing, so incredible that I get to do this for my career.
Yes, yes, yes, this gets to be my life!
The week ended with a bit of feeling of overwhelm – “How am I supposed to make ALL of this, my vision, all the goals I want to accomplish, all of my ideas, everything, work?”
Sunday night I pulled the tarot card 4 of Shells, “Soul Searching / Re-evaluation.”
It’s time to renew my energy, rest and meditate to regroup and re-direct my energy.
Then the rest of the spread told me that I’m battling an internal conflict that is me warring against myself.
Oof.
My ego wants me to think it’s others pulling me into conflict but it’s actually ME.
It’s me, Hi, I’m the problem, it’s me.
Sometimes truths are hard and raw, but necessary.
The water element also came through a ton in my reading, and I declared:
I am open to receive EVERYTHING!
I am open and willing to receive everything for the highest good that wants to flow into my life. I am a receptive vessel for universal life force energy to flow through me.
I am reclaiming this path and suspending all disbelief that my success is inevitable no matter what.
I also am returning to my original vision and what I posted on Day 1/2 of this blog series, to update where that stands as of now, and I’ll post that revision soon.
Whew. Getting caught up through the month of June feels like a barbell weight just lifted off my shoulders.
So many realizations happened, and so many things were shed light on, that have propelled me forward to re-commit to suspending disbelief.
It’s not that I actively gave up on it, but energetically things were thrown off for a bit.
It’s always okay to pick back up when you’ve fallen off the horse.
I promise you it’s better to re-commit and start where you are now, then to just quit entirely and be regretful months or years later that you didn’t follow through on that promise to yourself.
Perfection doesn’t exist; we just continue to take one small step forward each day, knowing our success is inevitable and we’re always on the right path, because we decide and declare that we are.
That’s it. You energetically declare and decide.
Then you move. Then you move again.
Each time you make a move, you’re getting closer to the vision you set out for yourself.
I’d love to hear from you if you have energetically decided to join this challenge and what’s come up for you so far – and I’m celebrating you if you have joined and would love to support you further.
If you need extra accountability and support in this book a free call with me here to chat about how I can support your journey further via a number of different ways – as a Witchy Mystical Intuitive Empowerment Mentor, I help you to navigate your personal journey of spiritual expansion and re-awaken your higher self’s voice to embrace and share your gifts with the world.
You get to suspend all disbelief that all this is possible for you, plus so MUCH MORE!
Share with me in the comments or by reaching out on social media tagging @kelli.femrite on Instagram or @KelliElizabeth on Facebook how you’re coming along in suspending disbelief. What feelings came up? What emotions surfaced?
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You get to suspend all disbelief that all this is possible for you, plus so MUCH MORE!
P.P.S.. – *Ask me about the Suspending Disbelief Paid Coaching Pod that Brianna Hosack put together, but I’m now officially going to be a part of as a spiritual and intuitive coach/mentor in this journey! This is an opportunity to go deeper in this suspending disbelief journey with two coaches/mentors and spiritual practitioners for accountability and mindset. You can get in on this coaching pod from now until April 2025.
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